Today’s Lesson From Therapy
July 14, 2010 No CommentsI had a bit of a breakthrough today, so I’m pretty excited. I’ve always seen my problems as just a series of failures or weaknesses.
Depression is one, lack of good housekeeping skills another, my weight and lousy eating habits, easily getting overwhelmed, and the list goes on. However, what I discovered is that all my issues pretty much stem from my being so overweight.
Looking like this gets me depressed, which makes me physically and emotionally incapacitated to clean my house or have the motivation to eat right and do other things that should get done, which makes me feel even more like a failure, which increases my level of depression.
Almost every area of my life has been directly impacted by my weight issues. Just the depression alone has suffocated the happy, energetic and bubbly person I used to be. It has made me stay locked up in my home with little to no desire to go anywhere or see anyone.
I learned that my entire sense of value and self worth is wrapped up in how I feel about my weight. Since I have such negative feelings about myself and my weight, and I feel like I’m a waste of time for everyone else; that I bring nothing of value to the table…even though I KNOW better.
I learned that I need to compartmentalize my weight issue and realize that my weight has nothing to do with my ability to be a good friend or wife or mom, and that my level of success and what I’m capable of achieving has nothing to do with my weight.
I need to stop using my weight as an excuse for why my life isn’t going the way I want it to.
I need to tackle it as a separate issue, while at the same time, pushing myself out of my comfort zone so I can see that I can be an amazing person despite my weight.
This will gradually help me to eliminate the false belief that I cannot be who I want to be or as successful as I want to be while I’m overweight.
So…yes, weight loss is still a priority of mine, and with the help of CrossFit, I will accomplish my goal. But I’m not going to put success on hold just because of a silly number on the scale.
What false belief do you have that’s keeping you from what you know you’re capable of?
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